CHANGE

Change...........................

I never really appreciate this word until I entered motherhood stage. It never occurred to me that this word could have a big impact when I became a mother. I guess it's because I've been used to just my husband and I for such a long time that life just revolved around us constantly with no definite change. It's just plainly me and him....no more, no less. 

But God really has plans for the two of us. It's in the time of our marriage life that we no longer pressure ourselves for everything that we were overthrown. I got pregnant. Being happy came with big changes that we're still coping up to now.

Don't get me wrong; We were really happy for the good news and couldn't be more thankful about it. But, alongside this happiness, We were also coping with loneliness of being far from each other. It was the first time in four years that we got separated because of his promotion to another city. It saddens us in a way because we have waited long to have a baby and be called a family, but then the downside is that we're far from each other.

I keep telling myself it's for our daughter's and our future's sake that we sacrificed being far from each other. I busied myself of taking care of our daughter and working just to somehow forget my longing of having him near to us. But sometimes, especially at night when all is quiet, sadness sets in.

Changes............................................

I guess I'll have to accept it fully.Not just for me, but for our baby who needs me. I love my family so much that I'm wholeheartedly willing to accept change no matter what it brings. I have my God who will always bind us together with abounding love and for that, I thank Him for the CHANGE.